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i am dead yet still breathing??
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
i cannot believe wat i have been tinking and guessing all tis while is true!!! guys come and go... typical!!!!! goodness me....... tis particular guy juz prove tat guyz cannot be trusted... sowie to the guys out there... but the fact still remains as a fact..... i juz simply dun understand guys... and i juz dun get wat is in their bloody head..............
WATEVER!!!!!!! haiz........ hmm.. went out wif my sis on tue.. coz she said she is stress... see pple.. wen pple are stress.. they have sumone to go out wif and to relieve their stress... but me?? i feel so invisible.... well.. mayb i am invisible... lotz of tings are like thru my head rite now... but i guess i will tell u all abt the conversation my sis and i had.... (i tell u i dun noe y i even had tis conversation wif her.....)
me: kin.. i have alwayz wonder y guys go for the outer beauty... and not the inner one.. y is the outer soooo important...even though the heart is ugly.. y kin??
sis: jihan.. to me the outer is important.. i will go for the looks... tat is like the no. one ting... coz tat's wat u will notice the first time u see a person.. is he is handsome.. or if she is pretty...
me: wat?? u will go for looks?? kin.. even though u are my sis.. we are like the total opp of each other...... y looks?? u might nvr noe the heart.. the heart might be good... or bad..
sis: ya.. in order to noe the heart.. u muz get to noe the person wat..
me: ya true.. but y the pretty gals get the advantage? y muz guys approach them first.. and not sumone ugly like me...
sis: u see jihan... if u wan to but a shirt.. which one will u pick between the 2... the nice and pretty one.. or the not so nice one? obviously u will pick the nice one rite? then will u touch the material to see if it is reali nice or not... from there u will noe if u wan to buy it or not rite?
so i guess pple like me reali have to look into the mirror huh... hmm.. wat my sis said makes sense... i am sad... reali sad.... haiz....
i once gave up in trying to build a relationship... the trust i had in him was broken juz like tat in front of my eyes... for quite sumtime i was reali sad... reali depressed... i was being fooled... i feel reali stupid... its like getting lost in a broad daylight... i told myself.. let's juz stop tinking abt guys for a while... mayb wen its time den i might consider... months pass by... and i seriously had no one in my tiny fragile heart... i did not want to take any risk.. coz i am afraid tat my heart will break again.. it has been so fragile coz its been glued back.. dun wan it to break again.. i am tired taking a reali long time to glue and heal my heart.. but den after months have passed... i met u.. and got to noe u...u are nice and caring.. not forgetting sweet... well.. tat's only becoz i look at ur heart.. (i guess??) if i am a bad gal... i will consider u due to ur history.. ur past.. and ur tatoos... but i did not care a single ting abt tat... i am not such person... i dun care abt all tat... after all u are still humans.. who makes mistake... oh well.... mayb i am juz too stooooopid... u noe wat... congratz for having ur name written in my book... my book of useless guys..... useless guys who does noting but hurt... hurting is their favourite past time... congratz... haiz... i guess i will end here.. my mum is nagging again.. dun noe why late she nags a lot.... she also simply hates me... haiz....................
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 10:56 PM
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i am dead yet still breathing??
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
i cannot believe wat i have been tinking and guessing all tis while is true!!! guys come and go... typical!!!!! goodness me....... tis particular guy juz prove tat guyz cannot be trusted... sowie to the guys out there... but the fact still remains as a fact..... i juz simply dun understand guys... and i juz dun get wat is in their bloody head..............
WATEVER!!!!!!! haiz........ hmm.. went out wif my sis on tue.. coz she said she is stress... see pple.. wen pple are stress.. they have sumone to go out wif and to relieve their stress... but me?? i feel so invisible.... well.. mayb i am invisible... lotz of tings are like thru my head rite now... but i guess i will tell u all abt the conversation my sis and i had.... (i tell u i dun noe y i even had tis conversation wif her.....)
me: kin.. i have alwayz wonder y guys go for the outer beauty... and not the inner one.. y is the outer soooo important...even though the heart is ugly.. y kin??
sis: jihan.. to me the outer is important.. i will go for the looks... tat is like the no. one ting... coz tat's wat u will notice the first time u see a person.. is he is handsome.. or if she is pretty...
me: wat?? u will go for looks?? kin.. even though u are my sis.. we are like the total opp of each other...... y looks?? u might nvr noe the heart.. the heart might be good... or bad..
sis: ya.. in order to noe the heart.. u muz get to noe the person wat..
me: ya true.. but y the pretty gals get the advantage? y muz guys approach them first.. and not sumone ugly like me...
sis: u see jihan... if u wan to but a shirt.. which one will u pick between the 2... the nice and pretty one.. or the not so nice one? obviously u will pick the nice one rite? then will u touch the material to see if it is reali nice or not... from there u will noe if u wan to buy it or not rite?
so i guess pple like me reali have to look into the mirror huh... hmm.. wat my sis said makes sense... i am sad... reali sad.... haiz....
i once gave up in trying to build a relationship... the trust i had in him was broken juz like tat in front of my eyes... for quite sumtime i was reali sad... reali depressed... i was being fooled... i feel reali stupid... its like getting lost in a broad daylight... i told myself.. let's juz stop tinking abt guys for a while... mayb wen its time den i might consider... months pass by... and i seriously had no one in my tiny fragile heart... i did not want to take any risk.. coz i am afraid tat my heart will break again.. it has been so fragile coz its been glued back.. dun wan it to break again.. i am tired taking a reali long time to glue and heal my heart.. but den after months have passed... i met u.. and got to noe u...u are nice and caring.. not forgetting sweet... well.. tat's only becoz i look at ur heart.. (i guess??) if i am a bad gal... i will consider u due to ur history.. ur past.. and ur tatoos... but i did not care a single ting abt tat... i am not such person... i dun care abt all tat... after all u are still humans.. who makes mistake... oh well.... mayb i am juz too stooooopid... u noe wat... congratz for having ur name written in my book... my book of useless guys..... useless guys who does noting but hurt... hurting is their favourite past time... congratz... haiz... i guess i will end here.. my mum is nagging again.. dun noe why late she nags a lot.... she also simply hates me... haiz....................
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 10:56 PM
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I can't be you
The name is NurJihan Binte Abdulla.
The Age is 21,was borned on 6March1987.
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Contact me @ jihan_five@hotmail.com.
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