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Sunday, March 26, 2006

hey there people... hmm.. juz finish doing my blogskin.. hehe.. nice a not? juz like the colour contrast.. black and green.. how nice can it be rite? haha.. lately i have started liking green.. kewlz.. yeeeeaaaa!!!! okok.. hmm..

lately rite.. i have been tinking of sumone.. weirdly lah... not tat i miz him.. but dun noe y i am juz asking myself wat actually happened between us.. hmm.. there's lots of mixed feelings actually.. angry for the way he treats me.. sad for the way i have been treated... confused for y he had to treat me tis way.. juz finding the reason for all tis... hmm.. and to add on to tis.. i heard a song by BSB.. which reali suits tis mood of mine and the situation i am in rite now.. hmm.. the song is memories.. not reali a popular song.. but a nice one indeed.. the first paragraph of tis song lyrics is reali for him... as far as i noe.. i did nothing wrong.. it was him who betrayed me.. being together wif another gal without me even noeing it.. the dreamz and experience tat we had juz went down the drain... he stabbed the dreamz tat we had once built... but y?? tis is the only reason i had alwayz wanted to know.. haiz..............tis is part of the lyrics..

Does it really matter if you got it right?
Does it really matter who was wrong or right? (yeah)
All I know, yes I know that I can make it through
What about you?

There's a placeI can't let go
Holding all the dreams I used to know
I wish it was the same
I guess no one's to blame
But I, I'd do it all again

and another song is almost here.. by delta goodrem.. tis song is reali reali nice.. and it also matches the situation i am in now.. hmm.. feels tat these songs juz understand me at tis point of time.. he came without me knowing.. we fell in love without us realising.. i was the one who was there alwayz to cmfort him and lend him my ears and shoulders wen he was down.. cared for him and unknowingly.. fell for him... gave him the warmth and love.. but tis is wat he gave me in return.. haizzz...well.. here are the lyrics....

(Brian)
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where the love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?

(Delta)
But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's not enough
And when I'm with you
I'm close to tears
'cause your only almost here

Bruise and battered by your words (brian
Days are shattered, how it hurts and delta)

Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted (brian)

tis last song is by destiny's child.. brown eyes... part of it is tis... the words he eva told me is juz soo touching.. so sweet and loving.. but i did not expect it to end it tis way... haizzzz....

remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it's me he trusts

i dun noe how am i suppose to figure it out... coz we are no more in contact rite now... he eva told me sowie and tat told me tat we could be frenz.. it hurts but i noe i have to except the fact... wif heavy hearts i continued tis life of mine.. there was once i msged him wishing him sumting... and his reply was..."who's tis?" i was like... wat the ****....... dun even remember me.. GREAT... PERFECT.... from tat dae on.. i decided well maybe he juz doesn't want to have aniting to do wif me ani more.. wel tat was wat he said once... but tat was way b4 we decided to be frenz.. the dae wen we we not in a reali good term.. haiz.. wat is reali happening to me?

lately i juz feel tat i am invisible.. like no one sees me around ani more.. maybe they are juz sick and tired of me? well.. if tat is the case.. sowie if i made u all sick.. hmm.. to those who still wanna read my blog.. ur most welcome.. hmm.. guess i gtg now... but i will not be blogging for the next few daes.. or maybe weeks.. coz i am having my examz... pray for me ya pple... appreciate it lotz.. take carez...

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 6:44 PM

wat a week.........

Friday, March 17, 2006

hey there people... hmm... its been a reali long time since i blogged huh? hmm.. been bz lah lately... haiz... got 3 test to 2 presentations to prepare for... aiyo.. y lah our skool like tis.. pple all having break.. den we got skool.. tat nvr mind lah.. but hor.. our time table like S***... soo packed... make us rush all in a few weeks.. we humans ok.. not robot ok.. haiz........... nvr mind... onli left wif 1 more yr b4 i graduate... hopefully... hehe... well guess i will go thru wat happened briefly...hmmmmmmmmm.......

6th march... a special dae for me.. a dae when my age increase by 1 more yrs old... haha.. received lots of 12 midnite wish..thankz to all ya.. tat nite nvr go to sleep... not coz i was waiting for sms wishes.. but was studying... having bio test on tue.. study like mad.. (and got the results back... hapi tat i pass.. but sad tat it was not a great pass.. ) oh well... nvr mind.. guess i have to study harder... aniwae.. at skool received a bdae gift from my cliques..(a bag i have always wanted..plus brooch and necklace..)... my cuzin..(a pooh binnie bolster and a fury bag..) my classmates...(a box of chocolates)....at home received bdae gift from my parents.. (attatchment shoes)... my elder sis..(necklace and cake....) THANKZ GUYS....LOVE YA LOTZ AND LOTZ...
7th march... got bdae gift from my sec cliques... thankz effa.... oh ya.. its a wallet.. i am using it now... hehe..
9th march.. my sec skool fren gave me a bdae gift.. 3 bracelet... thankz shena...
11th march... tis dae is such a great dae for me... very memorable dae...... was sitting in the living room eating maggie.. b4 preparing to go to my frenz house.. den my sec skool best frenz called...she was telling me tat she needed help.. i said wat was it.. i am listening.. she sounded very sad though.. hmm.. den i asked her to tell me wat i can do to help her.. she laughed and asked me to look out of my door... to my surprise.. they were there... the 3 of them... hahahaha... i was sooo shocked... they all so cute.. stood in front of the door holding a bdae cake singing a bdae song for me.. whahaha.. how cute can tat be? haha.. love them soo much.. den i immediately changed into sumting presentable.. hehe.. den we sat and had quite a long chat... well it could be longer actually... but i had plans.. suppose to meet jian hao and char to study.. haiz.. was late.. hehe..sowie.... so ya.. 3 of us took bus 9 together den one alighted at simei and the both of us went down at bedok and separated from there... hmm... niwaes.. i enjoyed tat dae a lot.. they made my dae.. i miz ya all sooo much guys.... i guess tat's it for now.. will update soon ya.. sowie.... oh ya.. btw... tis are sum of the pictures we manage to snap b4 leaving.........

ooppss..sowie a bit blurrrrrrr.....

....fashiha.. me and suriani..

...suriani..me.. zaf...

....fashiha..me.. zaf...

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 10:11 PM

OH MY GOSH!!!!

Friday, March 03, 2006

1st of march..... obviously a dae tat i will not 4get... eva... coz its the most memorable dae for me.... let me tell you wat happened..............

its a wednesdae.... so my frenz asked me out for ice skating... they said tat on a wednesdae the price is cheaper.. so i guess its fine wif me.. trying sumting new... but the fear in me is controlling me.. itsa like a barrier for me to go.... dun noe why.. but i am juz soo scared to go... scared of falling down and being laughed at.... haiz.. me and my fear.... so ya.. aniwaes... at first i tot of backing out... but den they forced me and said tat if i did not go they will not tok to me.. hmm... guess i have no choice but to overcome my fear... and guess wat.. the nite b4 the skating dae.. i fell... on my butt.. ouchhhhhhhhhh..... my mum lah.. hang the clothes on the baboo pole.. and the water dripping... den i walked and slipped and ended on my butt... *sobz* .....ouch......

the dae is finally here... 1ST OF MARCH.......prepared to go.. woked up a bit late actually... den quickly prepared and went out... bus 28 was super slow... and i reached there late..... sowie guys..... den took 66 to jurong...... super far!! but well luckily had my frenz in there... still can chat.. hahaha... reached there late.. and the ret have started skating.. haha... sowie... hehe.. okok.. it was super cold... the entrance ticket was paid by them.. den i asked how much.. she say later can pay.. so i tot ok lah.. later oso can.. den bought the gloves and took the skates.. the experience was fantastic... each of us fell at least once.. and luckily me i fell the smallest times.. which is one lah.. haha.. den we all decided to leave tat cold place at abt 4 plus 5.... got ready and den left for bugis.. they all wated to eat.. i have no idea where we are heading to but ya.. i juz followed them.. haha... wen we reach bugis, i was still asking them where we are eating.. and i did not get ani reply.. none of them gave me a specific answer... each of them was like.. dun ask.. juz follow.. i was puzzled.. and remained puzzled all the way till we reach tat place.. it was SEOUL GARDEN.... i was like.... oh my gosh..... my first time allowing my feet to step in there.. (ya i noe i am very back dated...) hmm.. planned to only drink coz i have no money.. it is very expensive.. so ya.. sat there.. but was reali lost.. and den they did not allow me to go aniwhere.. juz sit there and take care of their things... well.. i agreed coz i am not eating ani way.. so ya.. they came back wif their drinks which includes mine.. den they went to take the foods.. i realised tat the foods are all raw... i am beginning to feel more lost.. as usual lah.. me the blur sotong... den found out tat we are suppose to do the cooking.. whahaha... at last this blur sotong found out.. den all of a sudden they all forced me to eat.. they all cook and put in my plate... i felt bad coz i did not pay.. so i guess it is not rite for me to eat for free... haiz.. but the way they say juz makes me feel bad too... coz they cooked for me oreadi.. and i nvr eat... i am in the centre of nowhere.. so well.. i guess i juz eat the food tat they oreadi cok for me.. we were there till abt 9 plus.. wen my MUM called.. haiz.. as per normal.. nag and nag and nag..... ask me wat i am doing in bugis.. ask why i still not home yet... and bla..bla..bla.. den i told her i will be home soon.. obviously after being nagged at rite.. my face black ar.. den they all decided to tell me the truth... not by words.. but by singing... LOUDLY....... and the song goes like tis...
hapi burfdae to u..
hapi burfdae to u..
hapi burfdae to jihan..
hapi burfdae to u...

i was super shock!!! coz my bdae not here yet!! and they said my bdae falls on a mondae.. and it will be very late to celebrate it... so ya.. so.. from the morning till now.. it was all part of my bdae celebration... oh gosh!!!!! i am seriously very touched... tis was the most lost yet memorable celebration eva... thankz guys....

gtg now guyz.. update u more soon...

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 12:41 PM