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Monday, January 30, 2006

peace upon all of ya... how are u guyz? enjoying ur holidaes? hope so ya.. first ting first.. to all my chinese frenz.. hapi chinese new yr.. gong xi fa cai ya.. got red packet for me? hehex.. kidding...
so.. ya.. here to update u guys again.. after i left all of a sudden tat dae in the middle of blogging.. could not stand the pain lah.. hmm.. now actually still have lah.. but not tat bad like tat dae..

SAT....
well... on sat afternoon.. my parents left for tanjong pinang... leaving their 4 daughters all alone.. hmm.. luckily onli for one dae.. hmm.. my youngest sista was the saddest person.. after my parents left... she stood at the balcony crying.. (kinda of over huh? hehex..) i was baking another 4 cakes.. coz pple ordered for CNY.. den tried to cheer up my sista.. told her tat i will bring her for a jog... den promise to bring her to the playground.. den i saw a smile on her face.. haha.. i am smart huh? hehex...den finished the 4 cakes.. baked sum more chocolate cookies... for my siblings to eat.. coz the one i baked on thur finished oreadi.. haha.. den at nite all 4 of us slept outside in the living room.. coz its very windy.. yea!! nice manz.. haha..

SUN....
woke up early todae coz there was lotz to be done.. well not tat early lah.. but still early for me to wake up tis time during the holidaes.. hmm.. started the dae wif the clothes.... haiz.. hate tis part actually.. hang the clothes all to dry.. den clean the living room.. coz we slept there oreadi.. den cooked for my siblings breakfast.. took tis idea from skool food.. but changed it a bit here and there.. hmm.. luckily my sistas lurve the breakfast.. den used the comp for a while.. coz promised sumone to meet in online.. but in the end.. he was not online.. so sad.. but nvr mind lah... den after tat cleaned the whole house... started off wif my parent's room.. made it perfect.. hehex... den my room.. haiz.. my room is in a mess manz.. ok lah.. after cleaning it.. den my youngest sista said she wanted to eat lunch.. cooked for her fried rice coz she say she wanted to eat fried rice.. den fried wanton for me, my 2nd sista and my elder sis.. after lunch.. continued cleaning.. the rooms all done.. next the living room.. cleaned the living room like mad.. phew.. so tired.. den i proceed to the kitchen.. but juz as i was abt to finish it.. it was time for us sista to go jogging.. went jogging and to the playground too... after tat at abt 8.30.. my uncle called.. asked if we all wanted to follow to fetch our parents... and OF COURSE YESH!!! haha.. bathe.. changed.. and out we go.. miz my parentz lotz.. seriously.. even though it was onli one dae.. coz usually they do lotz of stuff for us.. den wifout them for one dae.. its like.. oh gosh.. haha..

my weekend tis week pass reali fast manz..now oreadi mondae.. tomorrow last dae holidaes.. haiz.. back to skoo,... well.. guess i better stop here coz i still have lotz of project to do.. both due next week.. take carez people..

WoRdS FoR ThE DaE

GOD created women to use more of the right brain...

tis deals more to the emotions....

GOD created men to use more of the left brain.....

tis deals more to tinking and calculating...

all we have to do is to understand wach other...

and everything will be all rite...

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 3:17 PM

IT HURTS!!!!!!

Friday, January 27, 2006

hey there people... hmm.. how are u guys...?? hope u all are fine.. todae is a start of a long break.. long? hmm.. 4 daes.. ya.. can say long lah.. chinese new year coming liao.. hmm.. tis sun rite? sat they all having reunion.. people ordered my marble cake for tis CNY.. all in all i did 8 cakes... 4 ordered one.. 2 for us.. another 2 for my neighbour..started baking from 8+++ and ended at 2am..tat includes me baking cookies... hehe.. juz wanna do sum for myself.. den can share wif my frenz.. i sooo lurve and enjoy baking manz.. hehe.. slept at abt 2.30.. den woke up at abt 5am!!!barely got 3 hours of sleep.. slept in the bus as usual coz i was tooo tired.. and guess wat.. i over shot... all tis while i sleep in the bus.. nvr missed my bus stop... dun noe why todae had to miz it.. haiz.. luckily woke up at the bus stop itself.. decided to stop after tat.. which is the interchange.. haiz.. guess i was toooo tired...hmm.. wanna blog lotz more.. but juz cannot.. guess have to stop here...

argh!! my head hurts lotz... it juz feel like bursting ani time now........

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 11:05 PM

*CaN ThErE Be MoNeY rAiN?*

Thursday, January 26, 2006

hey there people... how are u guys? fine? hope so... hmmm.... now in eplaza.. haiz.. was late for the first lecture.. den todae no bio lec... free 2 hours.. kewlz rite? haiz.. niwaes... lata at 11 got clinical lab... 1 hour.... den can go home liao.. but den...... GOT PROJECT TO DO!! lately have been concentrating lotz on projects.. very few time for studying oreadi.....wen can i eva have a rest? onli GOD noes.. hopefully all tat i am doing now will be rewarded wif sumting good...

hmm... lately my financial state is getting bad... its reali tite now... i have no choice but to ask from my mm... i noe i am a bad gal.. a bad daughter... but i need the money to top up my ezlink.. my hp bills are still not settled yet.. waiting for my attatchment money.. will be getting $190... sounds a lot huh... but it will be gone reali reali soon... pay my hp bill... den help pay for my dad's medical bill... and guess wat.. i am left wif onli $10?? ard there lah... haiz.. but i guess its ok.. coz at least i made my dad go for his check up... which i feel is reali more impt den spending tat money for my sake.. (but sumtimes u juz feel like spendin it rite.. coz it feels nice.. hehe)
i need a part time job immediately!!!!! plz..... i cannot see my parents reali having tite financial... oh gosh....*sobz*...*sobz*............................................................

i guess i will have to stop here... wanna continue my project now... haiz.. take carez pple.. update u all again soon.. bubbyez... smilez alwayz....

Words For the dae....

Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world.

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 9:21 AM

*BuSy WeEk..*

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Hey There People... i Am Back After Such A Long Time Nvr Blog.. Haiz... Been Reali Bz Lah.. Juz The Third Week Of Skool.. We Already Got A Date Line For All Our 3 Projects.. Which Is In 2 And 4 weeks Time.. Haiz.... Soooooooo Bz........ Stressed Manz...

Well... Decided Tat I Should Turn Over A New Leaf... My Mood reali Changes A Lot Tis Few Daes... Even i Am Scared Abt It.. i Dun Noe Why.. All Of A Sudden... i Will Like... Keep Quiet.. And Then Remember Abt Sumting.. Wen Ever I Am Quiet... It Juz Meanz Tat i Am Tinking Abt Sumting.. And i Need Time To Tink And Sort My Mind... Sowie Pple If i Eva hurt U In Any Way Or Another... By Keeping Quiet....

Well..Well...Well....Wateva...........
On Thursdae Was My Skool Open House... Flooded Wif Sec Skool Students... But Den.. My Fren Performed At 2.. She iS Our SHS Idol Manz... Hahaha.. Kewlz Rite.... But I Guess Not Kewlz for Her Manz..Stressing For Her... But Hey Izyan.. U Did Great U Noe... Honestly I hae Not Heard of Tat Song B4.. Understand Me Lah Eh.. Coz i Alwayz Listen To Malay Songs... But Wen u Sang Tat Song.. i Lurved it Lotz!!!! Honestly... Especially Wen i Heard It The 2nd time On Sat... U Were Great... Believe Me.... Even Though u Might Be Asking Why U Should Believe Me.. But Ya... (okok.. i am crapping here.... hehe..)

On Sat Wen Back To Skool.. Wif My Sisters..(i mean all of them..) i Wanted To Support Izyan... My Elder Sis Wanted To Meet Her Fren There.. And My Younger Sis Wanted To 'Shop' There... Brought Along My Youngest Sis..Pity Her.. Bored At Home.. So Guess Wanted To Let Her Enjoy.. Reached There A Bit Late.. Coz Of My Sis lah.. Cannot decide If She Wanted To Follow Me.. Me And My Youngest One Was Ready Oreadi.. Den She Decided To Follow.. Aiyo.. Reached There.. Looked For Izyan.. But Cannot Find.. Tot She Performed Oreadi.. Den Msg Her.. Phew.. Her Preformanced Was Postponed Till 4.. Pity Her.. But At Least i did Not Miz it.. Hahaha.. Wen It Was Time For Her Performanced.. Recorded All Of It.. Hehehe.. After The Whole Performance.. Went To See Her Back Stage.. And She Huged Me.. Was Quite Shocked.. Hehehe.. But i Did Not Mind.. Coz I Guess She Needed One.. Took A Foto Wif Her.. Den Went Back.. My Parents Picked Us Up.. My Elder Sis And Her Fren Headed For a Concert.. And As For Us.. We Went Out.. Had A Light Dinner.. But The Food Sux.. Hahaha.. Guess Wen u Alwayz Eat The Noodles Tat My Dad Ordered.. U Will End Up Having Hypertension.. It Was Super SALTY!!! Wateva Pple.. Went Home.. Bathe.. Did Project.. Till 3 Plus In The Morning.. So.. Tat Was My Long Saturdae.. And As For Sun.. Had Some Family Games Together Wif My Dad Juz Now.. (i won!! hehe) And Den.. Here I Am.. Blogging.. After Tis... Project Again.. Haiz... Gg To My Grandma's house.. Celebrate My Little Couzin'sa Bdae.. And Oso To Bid Farewell To My Uncle And His Family.. Heading Back To Australia.. Take Carez Paman Omar And Family..

Hmm..... Guess I Will Call It A Blog.. Have To End Here Guyz.. Or My Project Will Be Hanging In The Air... Take Carez All Of Ya.. Smilez Alwayz Ya... Study Hard.. See Ya Again The Next Time I Blog.. Till Den......... Bubbyez.....

*Words For The Dae....*
When U Tink u R The Worst.. U Are Not....
When U Tink u R The Best.. U Are Not...
There Are Alwayz People Who Are Better Or Worse Than U..
Millions Are Waiting To Be Born..
Millions Are Waiting To Die..
GOD Let U Live For A Purpose..
Make FULL Use Of It..
And Nvr Let Go To Waste...
SMILEZ ALWAYZ....

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 4:04 PM

...WiShEs FoR 2006...

Sunday, January 08, 2006

*peace upon all of u....*
hey there people...its been a while since i blogged.. i guess... hmm.. been a bit bz trying my best to change tis skin... hm.. well changed to a colourful one actually.. tat skin was super nice.. it reali shows my inner self ritenow.. but the skin got prob.. damn!! haiz.. niwaes.. i hope it is not too late to write down my wishes for 2006... hehehex....

goodbye 2005... and welcome 2006....
my wishes for 2006...........hmm.....
and wat i will wan to bring forward from 2005.....hmmm......
and wat i wanna leave behind at 2005......hmmm.........

....wat i left behind in 2005....
*my sad and hurting memories...
*my weakness..(if possible)
*my buddy..(believe it or not...)
*my spoilt mp3..
*my lazyness...
*my bad attitude..(hope so..)
*my anger..
*my 'chicken' and little heart..
*my weight..(trying my best for tis..)
*my lack of confidence..
*my lack of determination..

....wat i brought along from 2005 to 2006....
*my sweet memories..
*my experiences..
*my education..(did i??)
*my hp..(hahaha..)
*my lurve for family..
*my care and concern for my bro..sis..nephew
*my smilez and laughter..
*my warmth-ness...
*my self.....

....wishes for 2006....
*a new mp3..(plz...)
*a new digi cam..
*be more hard working..
*be more confident..
*be more determine in all i do..
*be a strong gal..
*be brave...
*putting more smilez on more pple..
*touching more pple's heart..
*succeed in all tat i do..
*remember all the impt dates..
*move on to yr 3... (insya allah..)
*have less weakness.. and more strength..
*prove pple their wrong abt me..
*have a good financial..
*find a part time job..
*make my family hapi..
*have a stable financial for my family..
*shy abt tis but ya.. lose my stupid weight...
*be my self still... (hope so...)

well.. so i guess i will stop here for todae.. hmm.. will be blogging again soon.. see ya pple.. thanks so much fer reading my blog... take carez pple..
*may GOD bless u alwayz.. *

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 1:40 AM

sad memories...

hmm.. still unable to sleep...
0134 in the morning still in front of my comp...
guess i should continue wif my 2nd part of my blog..
promised u all oreadi.. hmm..
tis are all the sad and hurting memories of 2005...
after a reali hard time forgetting my 5 yrs plus crush...
i try mixing ard more wif pple..
got introduce to a guy by my cuz..
had a lot of sweet nitez together wif him...
but on the fone lah....
den all of a sudden.. got no news from him after our first meet...
den had miz understanding between me and my buddy...
wen it was not even my fault...
den got to noe another guy...
tis one oso same...
spent lotz of sweet nitez wif him..
on the fone.. even though he a bit crazy at times..
but tis one a bit diff..
he wanted me to be his gal..
after he saw my pic...
and after i saw his pic too...
even though i admire him lotz..
lurve his voice and conversating wif him..
i had to reject him...
onli GOD noes y...haiz....
den a few mths later..
sumone wanted to get to noe me..
being frenz not wrong after all...
so ya... well.. we sooner get very close..
and wat shocked me was tat he saw me b4..
he saw me during my attatchment..
we oso end up having nitez of sweet chatting...
but he was a bit diff..
his was not onli nite..
after skool.. he will kol me.. and i will accompany him..
accompany him on the fone till he gets home..
and vice versa..
he will kol me wen i finish skool..
and he accompanies me till i get home..
he was extra special..
dun noe y.. but ya...
i fell for him... but forcing myself not to..
but too bad.. he oso felt the same.. none voiced out..
so both of us did not noe tat we had feelings for each other..
haiz.... too bad...... :(
but wen he found out abt it...
and wen i found out abt it....
i guess everyting was too late...
he had oreadi patched up wif his ex...
and left me all alone....
tis all happened... coz he tot i did not have feelings for him..
and to add to tis misery...
he told me once... to actually...
WAIT FOR HIM!!!!???!!!
told him tat i am sooo stressed... and confused...
he said he shall not want to do aniting wif me ani more..
and tat i am out of his contact list...
tis is the most saddest memories of yr 2005...
tis incident left me crying for days and nitez...
crying for weeks and months...
until one particular day..
i decided tat i should put a stop to tis and be strong...
pretend tat none of tis happened..
which was hard.. reali hard... but i had to do it..
so ya... my blogs... my nick... my everything...
was all abt forgetting him..
i was being very hard on myself..
and wen i tot i manage to get rid of him from my head...
he came back!!!! lookig for me..
saying tat he miz me.. and stuff like tat...
and tat wen i did not wan to bother him..
he say i am being bad..
setteled sum stuff wif him..
and now.. we are frenz.. well i tink so..
but i guess he still keeps the feeling he once had for me..
coz on and off he will hint me abt it...

argh!!!!!till today...
i dun noe wat i am suppose to do...
of all the pple in the world...
y muz i fall for him.. and y muz i be hurt by him...
pple eva ask me..
y him? he is not reali tat good looking..
he is still a student.. like me..
wat was there in him tat i was sooo stucked to?
i told them... it was his heart.. and his care...
he was like sumone special sent down for me..
but after tis incident..
i guess not... well.. i tink so...
so overall...yr 2005 was a reali heavy yr..
a yr where i was hurt over and over again...
my heart is now asking for forgiveness..
it cannot stand being broken repeatedly animore..
i am sowie....
well.. gtg now actually...
will be posting another blog abt my wishes for 2006...
take carez guyz..

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 1:28 AM

WeLcOmE 2006!!!

hey there people...
hope its not too late...
wishing all out there a very hapi new yr..
hmm.. its 0044 in the morning..
and still cannot sleep..
dun ask me y.. haiz....
well... decide to write abt my journey in 2005..

2005... a yr tat means a lot..
a particular yr tat carries lots of memories..
memories tat hurt and memories tat are sweet..
tis yr.. went out wif my sec skool frenz..
my closest frenz..
celebrated their bdaes...
went out raya wif them..
and yet.. i still miz them..
miz the times we had fun together..
miz the times wen we all havocked together..
haiz.. have to let those times go...
and can onli remain as memories..
tis yr oso went out raya wif my poly frenz..
great rite..
coz last yr could not make it..
had lotz of fun...
but still trying my best to mix ard wif them well..
my bdae in 2005....
was a bdae tat i had to remember..
had to bring home lotz of pooh..
coz they noe i like it lotz..
haha...
imagine.. got on the bus wif lotz of toys...
hahahaha... felt like pple tink i am nutz..
but well.. who cares..
it was my bdae.. so ya.... hehex...
tis yr was the yr tat i had my new hp..and mp3!!
nice one.. lurve them lotz...
and guess wat..
tis yr oso had to spend time wif my bro..
quite sum time lah..
break fast together once...hehex...
den..the last attatchment i had was full of memories...
tat ward was the best ward i eva went to..
the bond between my patients and me..
was reali close.... sooo touching manz...
and oh ya...
tis yr raya..had a new way of wearing my tudung..
first time trying it manz..
dun noe if i wearing it tat way again..
hehehehex...

well.. those were the great times...
the sweet memories i got to keep...
but i guess... there are more pain memories den sweet ones...
and u all should noe wat it is abt...
the hurting memories will be posted in my next blog..
see ya again...

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 12:37 AM

*...*...*JoUrNaL 32*...*...*

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

hey there people...
how are u guyz?
i apologise to my dear frenz out there..
who actually read my blog...
coz i have not been updating...
so sowie...
been reali bz lately...

skoolz's back.. and tat attatchment's over...
*sobzzzz*
i am sooo sad to leave my patients..
4 weeks taking care of them..
getting to noe them..
and noeing tat my help for them is appreciated...
i reali miz the sweet times i had wif them..
i noe tat some of my closest patients...
they do not have much time left...
u should noe wat i mean..
putting a smile on thier faces
during the last few moments of their life...
juz made me smile too...
the bond i had wif them....
haiz... but i had to leave..
i teared while toking to one of my closest patient...
i reali hope for their best in life...
and tat they will alwayz be hapi...

now skoolz back..
which means...
time to study....!!!!!....
which indirectly means more stress too....
am i rite?
hahaha... wateva it is...
hopefully i can cope wif sem 2...

*MSG FOR SUMONE...SHOULD NOE WHO U R*
tis is a msg to sumone..
who used to be very close to me...
well... i dare use the word 'used to'
coz i have tis feeling tat sumhow or wat..
he is avoiding me..
u should noe who u are...
unless u can prove to me tat wateva i said..
was false.. and tat u are not avoiding me..
it has alwayz been me...
me who started the conversation..
me who started smsing u...
me who started asking how u are... and how is life..
i did not care...
coz i guess u are bz..
so i give and take..
but as time goes by...
i started feeling tat u are sick and tired of me...
wen i was online..
i started chatting wif you..
there was no reply...
not once..
but twice...
until i went offline..
reali tot u were bz..
but i oso started realising tat wen i am online..
u made change ur status to be bz.. or away...
and it keep on repeating...
tis went on for weekz...
so i guess i am rite after all...
u are sick of me..
guess the promise made last time should be broken..
i dun mind..
coz i see no use in us keeping tat promise animore...
wen u dun even wan to tok to me..
so ya..
wish u all the best in wateva u do..
hope u succeed...
study hard and find yourself a gal..^_^
and take good care of her..

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 10:33 AM