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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
DeArEsT DiArY.....
hey there people...
peace upon all of u..
how are u guyz?
hope u all are fine..
me?? juz dun ask...
i am lost... broken into pieces...
i am in the process of finding myself..
so ya.. juz decided to blog...
hope i will feel better...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......
niwaes.. todae went to the cementry...
visited my late grandparents.. uncle and greatgrandma..
miz them sooo much..
i am reali wondering...
i cannot share probs wif my parents..
especially abt my personal life...
only if they are still ard huh...
i tink i will be able to let out my feelings to them..
haiz....... *sobz*
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
i can soo imagine it manz..
but how i wish it is all reality...
now... i am all by myself..
no one to listen to me..
and no one to entertain me..
no one to stop me cry...
no one to calm me down..
no one to put a smile on my face...
well.. tis i dun reali impt..
coz no one wants to see my smile ani wae..
sooo ya...
hmm... i guess i have to live wif all tis..
not tat i have not live wif all tis..
but i have to live wif it longer now..
haizzzzz.......
well....
i guess i wil end here for now...
no one reading it ani way...
so.. i will blog again soon..
take carez every body.. (if there is ani lah..)
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 11:20 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNaL 29*...*...*
Saturday, November 19, 2005
peace upon all of u...
how are u all?
hope u all are fine huh..
hmm.. cuz fiqah..
thankz for reading my blog..
the rest who read.. thankz too..
coz i noe not much of u read..
well.. nvr mind..
can't force pple to do sumting they dun like huh..
argh......... dun noe what i am crapping here..
haiz.. i am now reali stressed.....
got a story to let out to my blog...
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......
well..
hmm.. actually wrote abt HIM in here b4..
he ever said tat he wanna 4get me..
get me out of his contact list...
tat sentence is still in my head...
it feels like its juz been said yesterdae....
honestly.. it hurts a lot...
reali reali a lot...
made me tear every nite to sleep...
even lost concentration in wat i do in the day time..
but tis lonely broken heart manage to survive...
manage to go thru life all by myself..
den.... after one mth of not contacting each other...
i SUDDENLY get a msg from HIM...
BUT WHY??????????
ask him if he msg the wrong person..
but he got pissed off and got angry..
he said he did not expected the way i reacted...
wat am i suppose to do???
smile? laugh? be hapi??
i am hurt?? hello...??...???!!??...
it ended up me calling him...
ask him why?
why is he acting like tis towards the one sentence i asked?
our conversation tat nite while on my way home..
was full of silence.. and a bit of conversation...
it made me cry...even on my way home..
cried while talking to him..
but all he asked me to do was.. forget abt it..
and it ended there..
den msged me and asked why i cry?
but replied him late coz i got scolding from my mum..
i replied... "i remembered the past"
and till todae... no replay again from him...
what does he tink he is?
chips more biscuit?
now have.. now gone...
is tat what u are??
dun noe if u are reading tis..
but whatever it is...
juz tink..
and stop hurting me....
enough of me being a fool...
enough of me being hurt...
plz.....
if u need me to beg u...
i am willing to...
my heart is reali in a pain...
u went wifout me wanting...
came back wifout me knowing...
and left AGAIN wifout me knowing...
plz stop hurting tis heartbroken gal......
I HAD ENOUGH.....!!!!!......!!!!.....
u noe who u are i suppose.....
thankz for reading...
will have more blogs for all of u..
take carez...
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 10:38 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNaL 28*...*...*
Sunday, November 13, 2005
peace upon all of u...
how are u guys?
hmm.. hope u all are fine..
hmm.. its been a while since i update..
sowie guys..
been a bit bz... since its hari raya..
well.. its oreadi 10 daes of hari raya.. 20 more daes..
hehehehe...
next week gonna be a reali bz week..
out for like 5 daes in tat one week.. so excited!!
but hope tat my flu and backache will be gone by den..
hmm.. olevels is going on..
how is it buddy??
u have a few papers more to go..
so good luck.. okiez..
alevels oso going on now..
wish my frenz all the best manz..
tis is a song from kelly clarkson..
it means reali a lot...
hope u all like it..
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
*Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
repeat *
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI am afraid
Because of you...Because of you
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 2:58 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNal 27*...*...*
Thursday, November 03, 2005
hey there people..
its been a reali looooooong time since i blog...
sooo sowie abt it manz..
coz i am bz wif my projects..
den it was fasting period..
wif my examz going on..
haiz....
have been reali bz and stressing...
now it is hari raya!!
yea!! at last examz are over..
can enjoy..
but not in peace...
coz results not out yet..
another ting to worry abt...
hopefully i can pass manz..
dun wanna sit for sub paper..
cannot wait to go out raya wif my sec frenz..
miz them loads.....
but dun noe wen can go out together...
they start skool oreadi..
and i juz start skool HOLIDAES!!
at the most we can meet up on sat and sun
tis yr my poly frenz say i cannot avoid...
it is a MUZ to go out wif them..
hahahaha...
it is not i am avoiding lah..
last yr reali crash wif outing wif my sec frenz wat..
dun worry... i will go out wif u guyz okie?
hehehe..
okiez den..
to all my dearest muslim frenz...
*selamat hari raya aidilfitri...*
*maaf zahir dan batin*
kalo ader silap dan salah...
harap maafkan...
maklum lah...sayer ni manusia..
tidak bebas dari kesilapan dan kesalahan..
chey!! amacam? okie tak?
ni sendiri buat tau.. tak main copy2 tau...
the words were all ikhlas from the bottom of my heart..
k lah.. gtg now..
sooo sleepy oreadi..
hehehe..
take carez all..
*to my dearest buddy...
good luck for your olevels...
blajar betul2 tau...
i am still here to support you..
dun worry...okie..
so.. if aniting..juz ring me up..
jia you!!*
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 11:30 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNaL 30*...*...*
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
DeArEsT DiArY.....
hey there people...
peace upon all of u..
how are u guyz?
hope u all are fine..
me?? juz dun ask...
i am lost... broken into pieces...
i am in the process of finding myself..
so ya.. juz decided to blog...
hope i will feel better...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......
niwaes.. todae went to the cementry...
visited my late grandparents.. uncle and greatgrandma..
miz them sooo much..
i am reali wondering...
i cannot share probs wif my parents..
especially abt my personal life...
only if they are still ard huh...
i tink i will be able to let out my feelings to them..
haiz....... *sobz*
*sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz* *sobz*
i can soo imagine it manz..
but how i wish it is all reality...
now... i am all by myself..
no one to listen to me..
and no one to entertain me..
no one to stop me cry...
no one to calm me down..
no one to put a smile on my face...
well.. tis i dun reali impt..
coz no one wants to see my smile ani wae..
sooo ya...
hmm... i guess i have to live wif all tis..
not tat i have not live wif all tis..
but i have to live wif it longer now..
haizzzzz.......
well....
i guess i wil end here for now...
no one reading it ani way...
so.. i will blog again soon..
take carez every body.. (if there is ani lah..)
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 11:20 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNaL 29*...*...*
Saturday, November 19, 2005
peace upon all of u...
how are u all?
hope u all are fine huh..
hmm.. cuz fiqah..
thankz for reading my blog..
the rest who read.. thankz too..
coz i noe not much of u read..
well.. nvr mind..
can't force pple to do sumting they dun like huh..
argh......... dun noe what i am crapping here..
haiz.. i am now reali stressed.....
got a story to let out to my blog...
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......
well..
hmm.. actually wrote abt HIM in here b4..
he ever said tat he wanna 4get me..
get me out of his contact list...
tat sentence is still in my head...
it feels like its juz been said yesterdae....
honestly.. it hurts a lot...
reali reali a lot...
made me tear every nite to sleep...
even lost concentration in wat i do in the day time..
but tis lonely broken heart manage to survive...
manage to go thru life all by myself..
den.... after one mth of not contacting each other...
i SUDDENLY get a msg from HIM...
BUT WHY??????????
ask him if he msg the wrong person..
but he got pissed off and got angry..
he said he did not expected the way i reacted...
wat am i suppose to do???
smile? laugh? be hapi??
i am hurt?? hello...??...???!!??...
it ended up me calling him...
ask him why?
why is he acting like tis towards the one sentence i asked?
our conversation tat nite while on my way home..
was full of silence.. and a bit of conversation...
it made me cry...even on my way home..
cried while talking to him..
but all he asked me to do was.. forget abt it..
and it ended there..
den msged me and asked why i cry?
but replied him late coz i got scolding from my mum..
i replied... "i remembered the past"
and till todae... no replay again from him...
what does he tink he is?
chips more biscuit?
now have.. now gone...
is tat what u are??
dun noe if u are reading tis..
but whatever it is...
juz tink..
and stop hurting me....
enough of me being a fool...
enough of me being hurt...
plz.....
if u need me to beg u...
i am willing to...
my heart is reali in a pain...
u went wifout me wanting...
came back wifout me knowing...
and left AGAIN wifout me knowing...
plz stop hurting tis heartbroken gal......
I HAD ENOUGH.....!!!!!......!!!!.....
u noe who u are i suppose.....
thankz for reading...
will have more blogs for all of u..
take carez...
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 10:38 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNaL 28*...*...*
Sunday, November 13, 2005
peace upon all of u...
how are u guys?
hmm.. hope u all are fine..
hmm.. its been a while since i update..
sowie guys..
been a bit bz... since its hari raya..
well.. its oreadi 10 daes of hari raya.. 20 more daes..
hehehehe...
next week gonna be a reali bz week..
out for like 5 daes in tat one week.. so excited!!
but hope tat my flu and backache will be gone by den..
hmm.. olevels is going on..
how is it buddy??
u have a few papers more to go..
so good luck.. okiez..
alevels oso going on now..
wish my frenz all the best manz..
tis is a song from kelly clarkson..
it means reali a lot...
hope u all like it..
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
*Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
repeat *
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of youI'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of youI am afraid
Because of you...Because of you
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 2:58 PM
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*...*...*JoUrNal 27*...*...*
Thursday, November 03, 2005
hey there people..
its been a reali looooooong time since i blog...
sooo sowie abt it manz..
coz i am bz wif my projects..
den it was fasting period..
wif my examz going on..
haiz....
have been reali bz and stressing...
now it is hari raya!!
yea!! at last examz are over..
can enjoy..
but not in peace...
coz results not out yet..
another ting to worry abt...
hopefully i can pass manz..
dun wanna sit for sub paper..
cannot wait to go out raya wif my sec frenz..
miz them loads.....
but dun noe wen can go out together...
they start skool oreadi..
and i juz start skool HOLIDAES!!
at the most we can meet up on sat and sun
tis yr my poly frenz say i cannot avoid...
it is a MUZ to go out wif them..
hahahaha...
it is not i am avoiding lah..
last yr reali crash wif outing wif my sec frenz wat..
dun worry... i will go out wif u guyz okie?
hehehe..
okiez den..
to all my dearest muslim frenz...
*selamat hari raya aidilfitri...*
*maaf zahir dan batin*
kalo ader silap dan salah...
harap maafkan...
maklum lah...sayer ni manusia..
tidak bebas dari kesilapan dan kesalahan..
chey!! amacam? okie tak?
ni sendiri buat tau.. tak main copy2 tau...
the words were all ikhlas from the bottom of my heart..
k lah.. gtg now..
sooo sleepy oreadi..
hehehe..
take carez all..
*to my dearest buddy...
good luck for your olevels...
blajar betul2 tau...
i am still here to support you..
dun worry...okie..
so.. if aniting..juz ring me up..
jia you!!*
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 11:30 PM
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I can't be you
The name is NurJihan Binte Abdulla.
The Age is 21,was borned on 6March1987.
The patience Nurse.
Contact me @ jihan_five@hotmail.com.
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