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Saturday, October 01, 2005

hey there people..
how are you feeling todae?
hope your are all great...
hmm.. juz wanna blog abt something..
something tat shattered my heart...

hmm.. well.. lotz of things have been happening...
happening to me and myself..
dun noe why my heart is so fragile..
maybe coz i am a gal...

i ever blog abt HIM b4..
a few blogs b4 tis one..
all was on him...
i honestly fell in love wif him..
but he hurt me...
hurt me deep inside..
especially todae........

msn wif him juz now..
he saw my nick and ask if i wanted to 4get him..
i say i dun noe..
and he say if i wan to 4get him he will be sad..
but he will try to accept the fact lah..
i say i seriously dun noe..
den he ask me t i kept thr truth abt me liking him..
y i did not tell him..
i mean i am a gal.. like am i suppose to say.. hey, i like u..
den pple will tink i am a despo... which is soooo not true..
den i say.. i dun noe.. i dun have the ans wif me..
den he kept on asking me..
he asked me the reason y i like him..
den guess wat..
i actually ask him if he liked me..
and he say... yesh...
he say he liked me.. and he tinks we got chemistry..
and i tink the same way too...
argh!!!!!! haiz......
den he say he need to go..
so he needs an ans if i wan to wait 4 him.. or 4get him..
i reali dun noe!!!!!!!!
den i told him...
i leave it all up to u..
i cannot force him to like me..
and i wun wan to force him to come back 2 me..
den he say he dun noe either..
he is confused..
den we went silence for a while..
den he say he need to go oreadi..
den i say.. ok lah..
lastly i typed..
if u wan to forget me.. go ahead..
and guess wat he typed.........................
*OK.. I WAN TO 4GET U......*
tat shattered my heart into tiny pieces..
unknowingly..... my tears rolled down my cheeks...
i was speechless....
at one point of time..
he say he likes me..den next point of time..
he say he wans to 4get me...
b4 i left..
i told him tis...
*MY LAST WISHES 4 U B4 I LEAVE.. HOPE U ARE HAPI WIF YOUR GAL ALWAYZ..
SINCE TAT IS YOUR DECISION.. I HAVE NOTING TO SAY..*
and den he went offline...
he hurt me a lot...
reali a lot....
i am reali sad manz..

well.. i tink i will end it here..
i dun feel so good...
i juz wanna rest for now..
take carez....

Written By Nurjihan, 7:11 PM