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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

hey hey..
i am back pple..
its been sumtime since i blog huh..
bz lah.. having attatchment now..
haiz.. wat to do..
well.. today i guess i shall blog abt my week..
abt wat happened to me...

hmm.. well.. now i am feeling terrible..
as usual.. my heart aches again..
guys hurtiong it again and again..
why is it alwayz happening to me?
why me??? why do guys i fall for hurt me??
haiz... no wonder my heart reali aches..

tis guy.. whom i knew.. i guess for one month plus oreadi...
hmm.. we got closer as days went by..
chat in msn.. chat pn the fone.. and sms..
den i guess i fell for him..
he is reali nice.. caring...
everytime while chatting.. love his voice..
den wen he heard my mum's voice..
he will ask if that is his mum in law's voice..
he will alwayz say how much he miz me..
den one day.. he ask me if i got feelings for him..
a qn tat i myself dun noe how to answer..
i lied to him.. saying no.. coz we juz knew each other..
he den gave me a crying face..
he say he is hurt.. and went offline..
i was reali puzzled...
i keep on asking for forgiveness.. but he cried..
i dun noe wat to do..
i den decided to tell him the truth..
but there was no reply or wat so ever..
i am sooo sad..
i was down wif fever for 3 days.. tinking of it..
but no one cares..
i was in pain.. and sick all by myself..
now he is like ignoring me..
den suddenly he will msg me.. he misses me.....
wat the ****
i dun noe lah..
all i can do now.. is to forget him...
all the hopes he ever give me..
thrown down the drain....
i am soooo sad...
but wat can i do??
i am juz a human being..
whom i guess cannot fall in love...
well.. got to go now..
continue next time ya..
take carez..

*thanks for all the sweet memories... u noe hu u are...*

Written By Nurjihan,♥ 10:59 PM