|
*...*...*JoUrNaL 1*...*...*
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
helo there... i am back again... sowie coz i have not been blogging in for quite some time... have been sick lately.... my nose... like a leaking water pipe.... and den cough... and making it worst... i had my asthme attack... luckily it is juz a minor one... haiz.... all tis muz be the result of the stress i had recently.... niwaes... my holidays have not been so fun as i have always wanted it to be... problems are the one who accompanied me all the way so far during my holidays... isn't tat boring....
den... most of the times at home... doing wat?? haha... cleaning the house... den sitting in front my computer... hahaha... but the computer always gives me problem... now you guys see wat i mean by problems are the one accompanying me.... problems of the computer... den problems at home... den problems of my heart...(should noe wat i mean by tis har...)
hey.. noe wat happened... i did not expect my buddy to actually do something tat would make me worry and sad... he wanted to end his life.... haiz... i tot onli i will take tat kind of actions... wen i read his blog... i suddenly recalled back wat happened during my secondary life... the dae wen i tried to end my life....well if not ending my life.. maybe juz getting myself injured.... i could not stand all the problems any more... there were reali lots of problems i faced during tat period of time.... and i could not face the fact tat such problems are reali happening... well you all may say tat i am stupid... doing something without thinking... but i was reali stressed out at tat point of time... i sat in my room... the usual place which gives me comfort... and used the pen knife.... to slash my hands... i juz continue to injure myself... the side opposite my palms... it was reali pain.... there were lots of slashes there... my wrist... i onli slashed like 2 coz.. there was 2 painful... well... i could not tink... den i juz dropped the pen knife... and was wondering wat i was doing.....i cried... and cried.... but sliently... no one noes.... i den wiped off the blood... den calmed myself down.. and went to sleep.... well... tinking back... can say... i reali took a stupid action... did it without tinking.. hahaha....
now... a promise is being made between me and my buddy.... no more stupid actions should be taken... tink b4 doing anything..... dun becoz of someone tat you love... but no response from them... you should end your life... if the person dun care abt you.... y should you end your life... it juz proves to them tat... all tis while.. wat they tot of you is true... YOU ARE WEAK AND USELESS..... well... tis is wat i concluded for myself.....
kkzz... got to go now... see ya soon.....
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 3:58 PM
|
|
|
*...*...*JoUrNaL 1*...*...*
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
helo there... i am back again... sowie coz i have not been blogging in for quite some time... have been sick lately.... my nose... like a leaking water pipe.... and den cough... and making it worst... i had my asthme attack... luckily it is juz a minor one... haiz.... all tis muz be the result of the stress i had recently.... niwaes... my holidays have not been so fun as i have always wanted it to be... problems are the one who accompanied me all the way so far during my holidays... isn't tat boring....
den... most of the times at home... doing wat?? haha... cleaning the house... den sitting in front my computer... hahaha... but the computer always gives me problem... now you guys see wat i mean by problems are the one accompanying me.... problems of the computer... den problems at home... den problems of my heart...(should noe wat i mean by tis har...)
hey.. noe wat happened... i did not expect my buddy to actually do something tat would make me worry and sad... he wanted to end his life.... haiz... i tot onli i will take tat kind of actions... wen i read his blog... i suddenly recalled back wat happened during my secondary life... the dae wen i tried to end my life....well if not ending my life.. maybe juz getting myself injured.... i could not stand all the problems any more... there were reali lots of problems i faced during tat period of time.... and i could not face the fact tat such problems are reali happening... well you all may say tat i am stupid... doing something without thinking... but i was reali stressed out at tat point of time... i sat in my room... the usual place which gives me comfort... and used the pen knife.... to slash my hands... i juz continue to injure myself... the side opposite my palms... it was reali pain.... there were lots of slashes there... my wrist... i onli slashed like 2 coz.. there was 2 painful... well... i could not tink... den i juz dropped the pen knife... and was wondering wat i was doing.....i cried... and cried.... but sliently... no one noes.... i den wiped off the blood... den calmed myself down.. and went to sleep.... well... tinking back... can say... i reali took a stupid action... did it without tinking.. hahaha....
now... a promise is being made between me and my buddy.... no more stupid actions should be taken... tink b4 doing anything..... dun becoz of someone tat you love... but no response from them... you should end your life... if the person dun care abt you.... y should you end your life... it juz proves to them tat... all tis while.. wat they tot of you is true... YOU ARE WEAK AND USELESS..... well... tis is wat i concluded for myself.....
kkzz... got to go now... see ya soon.....
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 3:58 PM
|
|
Author
I can't be you
The name is NurJihan Binte Abdulla.
The Age is 21,was borned on 6March1987.
The patience Nurse.
Contact me @ jihan_five@hotmail.com.
|
Exits
scandals and acquaintances
Families
Cuz Qhairul,
Cuz Syafiqah,
Sis Shuhadah
Friends
Amanda,
Ann
Buddy,
Clara,
David,
Ellyas
Fareha,
Firah,
Hidayah,
Izyan,
Jasmine,
Joanna,
Jamal,
Mano,
Nashran
,
Oyster,
PoohBear,
Rashidah,
Sarah,
Suriani,
Sheena,
Si Hua,
Yat,
Yue Ning
thankyou
respect their work and effort
basscodes : pullyourtangles
designer : kika-brain
|
tagboard
Please Do tag on the entries and also leave behind your Links.
Thank You
under conttrustion
|
the history
the past memories
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
February 2009
April 2009
|