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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
helo there.... i am here again to post a journal....
well... yesterday.. had a long chat wif my buddy... thru msn i mean...
told him my problems.... as usual... me and my problems...
den... he gave me advice... he such a counsellor...
thanks buddy.....
i tink and is still tinking....
how stupid could i be....
still waiting and waiting....
even after 1 year...
i nvr gave up...
and i have made up my mind....
i tink i better stop waiting...
coz the person i am waiting for....
will not appear in front of me....
i will nvr be able to accept the fact...
the fact tat i will have to forget him...
maybe... he has forgotten about me...
usually... girls are the one hurting guys...
but... for me..it is the guy tat is hurting me...
y muz i fall in love wif you??
y muz it be you....
and i noe you knew abt it....
and yet.... you gave me false hopes...
y is there a ting called love??
i juz dun understand...
you are the one tat gave me the courage....
the courage to continue on wif life....
everytime i have problems...
you were always there for me...
and the same goes to me....
everytime you had problems...
i am always there for you...
wen you did not come to school....
only GOD noes how worried i was...
wen you were injured...
i cried from inside...
i could feel the pain you are going thru...
we always had someting to talk about....
even to the extend of wat you wore last nite to bed...
i found it funny tat you had to tell me all tis...
but i tink it was ok... coz afterall...
we are very close....
i always made sacrifices for you...
reali especially for you...
i have always been scolded by my frenz...
and we all often argue wif each other...
and for your information...
it was all becoz of you...
they nvr liked you...
but i always denied all those bad things they said abt you...
everytime i heard you being insulted... and critisized...
me heart aches...
it reali does...
but you nvr knew abt it.... coz i dun wanna you 2 worry...
i always did wat you asked...
even to the extend tat i have to face my best frenz...
to the extend tat it will make my frenz unhappy...
but i will always console them... becoz i feel bad....
all i know is tat i have to make you hapi...
and after all tat i have done for you...
tis is wat you do to me??
for one long pathetic year....
i sat down and cried....
cried abt wat happened between us...
crying and hoping tat you will come and wipe my tears away...
but till today...
my tears is still rolling down my cheeks....
and i am still waiting for you to wipe it away...
waiting for you to console me and being there for me....
but you nvr came....
and the most hurting fact is tat...
there was not even a single msg from you...
a msg at least asking how am i....
i guess...you have deleted my number away from your hp...
i have yet the courage to delete your number...
something in me is telling me....'dun delete....'
i am waiting for a miracle to happen...
waiting for a year...
it juz feels like i have waited for a million years....
but... i guess the waiting have to end...
i have nvr imagined tis day to come...
the day where i have to delete your number...
the day where i have to forget who you are...
the day where i have to forget abt the sweet memories we had...
the day where i have to completely forget... who u are to me....
now i have to clear your name from my head....
hoping tat i will nvr remember abt you anymore...
i guess.....
tat day is today....
i am sick and tired of waiting....
waiting for a dream tat will nvr becoome reality...
all tis while... i wasted my time waiting for you....
and if you are reading tis...(which i bet you will nvr bother to...)
you muz be tinking tat i am reali stupid...
it is up to u....
you can call me wateva you wan...
you can call me stupid...
silly....
fat hopes......
idiot....
dream on....
say wateva you like...
coz i tink it is your mouth and tat i have no right to stop you...
and i noe i will nvr have the right to....
let all tis juz be memories to you and me...
wait... i dun even tink you wanna remember abt it...
juz forget it... neither will i remember you...
i will promise myself tat you will be a history to me...
maybe more like a pain and hurting history....
Written By Nurjihan,♥ 5:04 PM
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
helo there.... i am here again to post a journal....
well... yesterday.. had a long chat wif my buddy... thru msn i mean...
told him my problems.... as usual... me and my problems...
den... he gave me advice... he such a counsellor...
thanks buddy.....
i tink and is still tinking....
how stupid could i be....
still waiting and waiting....
even after 1 year...
i nvr gave up...
and i have made up my mind....
i tink i better stop waiting...
coz the person i am waiting for....
will not appear in front of me....
i will nvr be able to accept the fact...
the fact tat i will have to forget him...
maybe... he has forgotten about me...
usually... girls are the one hurting guys...
but... for me..it is the guy tat is hurting me...
y muz i fall in love wif you??
y muz it be you....
and i noe you knew abt it....
and yet.... you gave me false hopes...
y is there a ting called love??
i juz dun understand...
you are the one tat gave me the courage....
the courage to continue on wif life....
everytime i have problems...
you were always there for me...
and the same goes to me....
everytime you had problems...
i am always there for you...
wen you did not come to school....
only GOD noes how worried i was...
wen you were injured...
i cried from inside...
i could feel the pain you are going thru...
we always had someting to talk about....
even to the extend of wat you wore last nite to bed...
i found it funny tat you had to tell me all tis...
but i tink it was ok... coz afterall...
we are very close....
i always made sacrifices for you...
reali especially for you...
i have always been scolded by my frenz...
and we all often argue wif each other...
and for your information...
it was all becoz of you...
they nvr liked you...
but i always denied all those bad things they said abt you...
everytime i heard you being insulted... and critisized...
me heart aches...
it reali does...
but you nvr knew abt it.... coz i dun wanna you 2 worry...
i always did wat you asked...
even to the extend tat i have to face my best frenz...
to the extend tat it will make my frenz unhappy...
but i will always console them... becoz i feel bad....
all i know is tat i have to make you hapi...
and after all tat i have done for you...
tis is wat you do to me??
for one long pathetic year....
i sat down and cried....
cried abt wat happened between us...
crying and hoping tat you will come and wipe my tears away...
but till today...
my tears is still rolling down my cheeks....
and i am still waiting for you to wipe it away...
waiting for you to console me and being there for me....
but you nvr came....
and the most hurting fact is tat...
there was not even a single msg from you...
a msg at least asking how am i....
i guess...you have deleted my number away from your hp...
i have yet the courage to delete your number...
something in me is telling me....'dun delete....'
i am waiting for a miracle to happen...
waiting for a year...
it juz feels like i have waited for a million years....
but... i guess the waiting have to end...
i have nvr imagined tis day to come...
the day where i have to delete your number...
the day where i have to forget who you are...
the day where i have to forget abt the sweet memories we had...
the day where i have to completely forget... who u are to me....
now i have to clear your name from my head....
hoping tat i will nvr remember abt you anymore...
i guess.....
tat day is today....
i am sick and tired of waiting....
waiting for a dream tat will nvr becoome reality...
all tis while... i wasted my time waiting for you....
and if you are reading tis...(which i bet you will nvr bother to...)
you muz be tinking tat i am reali stupid...
it is up to u....
you can call me wateva you wan...
you can call me stupid...
silly....
fat hopes......
idiot....
dream on....
say wateva you like...
coz i tink it is your mouth and tat i have no right to stop you...
and i noe i will nvr have the right to....
let all tis juz be memories to you and me...
wait... i dun even tink you wanna remember abt it...
juz forget it... neither will i remember you...
i will promise myself tat you will be a history to me...
maybe more like a pain and hurting history....
Written by Nurjihan,♥ 5:04 PM
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I can't be you
The name is NurJihan Binte Abdulla.
The Age is 21,was borned on 6March1987.
The patience Nurse.
Contact me @ jihan_five@hotmail.com.
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